This is the last post in a long series and I have debated about posting this at all. But here goes…
In early August my best friend Shelley (you might remember from her bridal shower) gave birth to her beautiful son Luke Ray Fitzgerald. Unfortunately before Luke was born he returned to his Heavenly Father.
When I first heard this news it absolutely crushed me. I couldn’t understand how something like this could happen or better yet, WHY?!
Shelley is my rock. She has been my friend since I can remember and I always turn to her for advice or help. It hurt me that I couldn’t help her in this challenge in her life. It hurt me that I couldn’t relate to what she was going through. It hurt me that she had to experience this pain at all.
I’m not sure if this is a coincidence or not, but in Primary, the song of the month was ‘The Lord Gave me a Temple’. It had only been a day since I heard the tragic news and as I was preparing my lesson for primary, it still didn’t hit me. But as I was teaching this new song to the kids the light bulb went off. My dear Shelley, she has never done anything wrong in her life and there was a reason for it. In our pre-mortal life, she made the choice, the sacrifice, to give this perfect soul a body without the joy of raising him on Earth. He needs this body and she gave him that gift. Although it will not be hard, she is strong enough to make it through this so she can see him again and raise him in Heaven. I cannot sign this song now without crying. I try to hold it in but I just end up watching the children sing. They don’t understand the impact their sweet voice have signing these important words have on me.
One reason I decide to post this is Shelley has created a blog. After her experience many people have come to her with similar experiences. You never know what goes on behind closed doors and if you have had a similar experience, she is a great example to follow. http://blog.trevorandshelley.com/
This has changed the way I look at life. If you have noticed I have been a little quitter lately, I’m sorry. Please don’t take my silence personally. I am adjusting to the new me and don’t seem to have as much to talk about anymore.
Shelley and Trevor, I love you both! Trevor, I have not forgotten about you, I think about you everyday!
Until Next Time…
